Monday, August 23, 2010
Finally registered for the Treherne marathon. I thought it was the usual lackadaisical attitude that kept me from registering sooner. When I pressed the 'Confirm registration' option, I realized it was repressed FEAR that kept me from registering. I felt like throwing up and my heart started racing. The marathon block in my head is out of control. I can't go running a marathon like this. You have to believe you can do it. You need to have mental toughness. I used to be tough. What happened? I've delivered 2 kids without anaesthetic for crying out loud (ok, so it wasn't by choice, but still). Surely I can run 26.2 miles. I've run 21 miles, so whats 5 more miles? The rational side of me says of course I can do this. Its not like I haven't been training. Its not like I'm aiming for a good time either. I just want to finish and move on to the next goal ( Vulture Bait!). Right now I do not feel at all like the person who writes in this blog. Presently I am a trembling blob of anxiety.